How far along?: 11 weeks!
How big is baby?: A large lime
Stretch marks?: no new ones
Maternity clothes?: officially. i went shopping today and got two pairs of jeans, a pair of khakis and a shirt!
Sleep?: never all the way through the night!
Food cravings?: nothing really, i jsut eat it is it DOESN"T make me gag
Movement?: Kel pushed really hard on my lower abs and was able to feel the super fast itty bitty heartbeat! it was really cool. i just felt my own
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?:starting my new job. hopefully i will start to feel better soon.
Sunday, January 29, 2012
Monday, January 23, 2012
3 sides to this story...
Today there are thousand upon thousand of people in Washington DC marching, some silent, some loud, some young, many old, protesting the Supreme Court Decision of Roe v. Wade. Today has been emotional for me and it's not just for one reason. I have three sides to my ProLife reason. All of them have happened in the past year. I have always been ProLife, i've even marched 3 different years in DC, but i never really understood the gravity of the situation until this year.
Side 1: The first event to shock the true meaning of ProLife into me was the adoption of my niece. I have talked about her often in my other blog. However today i thought about her more and more by the hour. She is only a part of my family because some woman i will never meet, some woman in a bad situation that i will never know, decided that Her life was to give her unborn child a life. Not only did she give birth and then struggle for the rest of her life to make ends meet and raise that little baby girl, hoping that little baby girl had a good life, but she gave that Baby girl more than just her first breath, she gave her a family that will make sure every single possible avenue of love, life and respect will be brought into that baby girl's life. God gave up his only son for the world to be saved. My nieces birthmom gave up her baby girl for that baby to be saved. Both were more difficult than i could ever imagine. Jesus saved the world because he was given up!
Side 2: My sister-in-law got pregnant last year. No father, no job, nowhere to go. She was easily in a situation many women claim they can't handle. Many women turn to a doctor and say "make this disappear so i don't ruin my life!" My sister-in-law toughed through it to save a BABY's life. It's very weird in one month seeing the joy an unplanned baby brought to my family because of a woman's selfless decision and then seeing the trials and tribulations that come from an unplanned baby. It's such a difference on each end, but both result in LIFE not death. Keeping a baby after a rocky situation is just as hard of a choice as giving the baby up. Many people would argue with that, but until they have seen both it is impossible to gauge. I believe after seeing both sides that there is a choice for every woman faced with pregnancy, wanted or unwanted, to make instead of life or death: Give up the baby and the baby a change with a family you hand choose, see the baby as you wish and know for your life that the baby is safe, warm, loved and doubly blessed by you, or to give up your life to keep the baby as your own no matter what happens after that. Both require a sacrifice, and neither is easy. However both are easier on a woman than the regrets to come after murdering a helpless child before they even take their first breath.
3. my third point of view is my own. I am pregnant. I understand that i am "fortunate" and many people would argue that my situation is different from other because i am married (i put that in parenthesis because i CHOSE to wait until i was married to have a baby). However, i have loved this baby with everything i have since the moment my fourth (yeah i was untrusting of the first three) pregnancy test said PREGNANT! Just because i am married doesn't mean i am ready, it doesn't mean i'm not scared, it doesn't mean i can afford this. My husband and i were barely making it work BEFORE this and already the extra expenses are a lot to handle. but my hardships and fear are no reason to give up. This already has not been an easy pregnancy on me. I have changed physically and mentally and been sicker than anyone could have ever prepared me for. me throwing up every day is no excuse to kill my child.
I know that looking at the situations and my current situation is not the same as what many women's situation has been. That doesn't mean i am clueless. However, i have seen women loose a child, i have seen women miscarry, i have seen a teenage girl live with the regret of having an abortion and i have seen my own sister go through YEARS of trying just to find out that infertility means she will never biologically have children. Of all those situations the one that was hurt the most if the girl who chose HER life over her babies! If a person is willing to have an abortion i challenge them to go the whole 40 weeks, give birth to the baby, and then have to doctor kill it. It sound vulgar and asinine that i even suggest it, but ask yourself how much of a different there really is. Both require a great deal of physically pain and both endure more mental pain than almost any woman can bear. No baby is an "accident." Every baby was intended by God to live on this earth, not matter how long or brief a life. Unborn children can't speak up for themselves, but as a woman carrying an unborn child i have to say something. My baby deserves life, why shouldn't all of them?
Side 1: The first event to shock the true meaning of ProLife into me was the adoption of my niece. I have talked about her often in my other blog. However today i thought about her more and more by the hour. She is only a part of my family because some woman i will never meet, some woman in a bad situation that i will never know, decided that Her life was to give her unborn child a life. Not only did she give birth and then struggle for the rest of her life to make ends meet and raise that little baby girl, hoping that little baby girl had a good life, but she gave that Baby girl more than just her first breath, she gave her a family that will make sure every single possible avenue of love, life and respect will be brought into that baby girl's life. God gave up his only son for the world to be saved. My nieces birthmom gave up her baby girl for that baby to be saved. Both were more difficult than i could ever imagine. Jesus saved the world because he was given up!
Side 2: My sister-in-law got pregnant last year. No father, no job, nowhere to go. She was easily in a situation many women claim they can't handle. Many women turn to a doctor and say "make this disappear so i don't ruin my life!" My sister-in-law toughed through it to save a BABY's life. It's very weird in one month seeing the joy an unplanned baby brought to my family because of a woman's selfless decision and then seeing the trials and tribulations that come from an unplanned baby. It's such a difference on each end, but both result in LIFE not death. Keeping a baby after a rocky situation is just as hard of a choice as giving the baby up. Many people would argue with that, but until they have seen both it is impossible to gauge. I believe after seeing both sides that there is a choice for every woman faced with pregnancy, wanted or unwanted, to make instead of life or death: Give up the baby and the baby a change with a family you hand choose, see the baby as you wish and know for your life that the baby is safe, warm, loved and doubly blessed by you, or to give up your life to keep the baby as your own no matter what happens after that. Both require a sacrifice, and neither is easy. However both are easier on a woman than the regrets to come after murdering a helpless child before they even take their first breath.
3. my third point of view is my own. I am pregnant. I understand that i am "fortunate" and many people would argue that my situation is different from other because i am married (i put that in parenthesis because i CHOSE to wait until i was married to have a baby). However, i have loved this baby with everything i have since the moment my fourth (yeah i was untrusting of the first three) pregnancy test said PREGNANT! Just because i am married doesn't mean i am ready, it doesn't mean i'm not scared, it doesn't mean i can afford this. My husband and i were barely making it work BEFORE this and already the extra expenses are a lot to handle. but my hardships and fear are no reason to give up. This already has not been an easy pregnancy on me. I have changed physically and mentally and been sicker than anyone could have ever prepared me for. me throwing up every day is no excuse to kill my child.
I know that looking at the situations and my current situation is not the same as what many women's situation has been. That doesn't mean i am clueless. However, i have seen women loose a child, i have seen women miscarry, i have seen a teenage girl live with the regret of having an abortion and i have seen my own sister go through YEARS of trying just to find out that infertility means she will never biologically have children. Of all those situations the one that was hurt the most if the girl who chose HER life over her babies! If a person is willing to have an abortion i challenge them to go the whole 40 weeks, give birth to the baby, and then have to doctor kill it. It sound vulgar and asinine that i even suggest it, but ask yourself how much of a different there really is. Both require a great deal of physically pain and both endure more mental pain than almost any woman can bear. No baby is an "accident." Every baby was intended by God to live on this earth, not matter how long or brief a life. Unborn children can't speak up for themselves, but as a woman carrying an unborn child i have to say something. My baby deserves life, why shouldn't all of them?
Saturday, January 21, 2012
1/4 of the way there!
How far along?: 10 weeks!
How big is baby?: A plum... shich is cool because last week it was the size of an olive and now a plum... that means LOTS of growing has gone on!
Stretch marks?: yup... they are inviting friends too!
Maternity clothes?: yup... at least now i just wear regular clothes that stretch in the stomach
Sleep?: too much if you ask me. i sleep alright at nights and then take at least 1 nap a day! yesterday i was so tried i took 2 two hour naps and only then did i feel better
Food cravings?: lots of carbs... and chocolate!
Movement?: nothing i can feel, but we had a sonogram and the tech told us normally they can see the baby move and tried to get it to move, but apparently our baby is lazy and stubborn... kinds like it's Daddy!
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: Going to Florida! There are lots of things to consider though, the doctor gave me motion sickness patched to go along with my pill because i am still really sick everyday. She warned that on planes i am likely to get very dizzy and very tired because of the altitude changes, so make sure i am not alone. Also i never would have thought to ask to be searched instead of going through the metal detectors int eh airport. It makes sense though because i can't be exposed to x-rays and that's what the machines do, so instead i just get violated! But i am really hoping this vacation will give me enough time to relax and burn a whole first trimester weeks so when i get back i can start working without being exhausted and maybe i will even start feeling better!
We got another sonogram this week. Baby actually looks like a Baby now and not a gummy bear. we saw all 10 fingers and all 10 toes and the most adorable little feet i have ever seen. Also we saw Baby's heartbeat, nice and strong, and Baby sucking it's thumb! i never expected to see all that this early and it's all starting to feel real (and scary!). Also this past week i put on a outfit and actually looked like i had a little belly not like i was just bloated! It was SO amazing!
The doc said i just have to make sure and listen to my body as much as possible. I've noticed i get more nausea when i am standing, so i try to stand as little as possible. Also showers make em really lightheaded from all the steam my bathroom collects, so i take really short cold showers! It frustrating though because i miss hanging out with my friends, but i don't have energy to do anything, so i am hoping in February i can get caught up on my social calendar!
How big is baby?: A plum... shich is cool because last week it was the size of an olive and now a plum... that means LOTS of growing has gone on!
Stretch marks?: yup... they are inviting friends too!
Maternity clothes?: yup... at least now i just wear regular clothes that stretch in the stomach
Sleep?: too much if you ask me. i sleep alright at nights and then take at least 1 nap a day! yesterday i was so tried i took 2 two hour naps and only then did i feel better
Food cravings?: lots of carbs... and chocolate!
Movement?: nothing i can feel, but we had a sonogram and the tech told us normally they can see the baby move and tried to get it to move, but apparently our baby is lazy and stubborn... kinds like it's Daddy!
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: Going to Florida! There are lots of things to consider though, the doctor gave me motion sickness patched to go along with my pill because i am still really sick everyday. She warned that on planes i am likely to get very dizzy and very tired because of the altitude changes, so make sure i am not alone. Also i never would have thought to ask to be searched instead of going through the metal detectors int eh airport. It makes sense though because i can't be exposed to x-rays and that's what the machines do, so instead i just get violated! But i am really hoping this vacation will give me enough time to relax and burn a whole first trimester weeks so when i get back i can start working without being exhausted and maybe i will even start feeling better!
We got another sonogram this week. Baby actually looks like a Baby now and not a gummy bear. we saw all 10 fingers and all 10 toes and the most adorable little feet i have ever seen. Also we saw Baby's heartbeat, nice and strong, and Baby sucking it's thumb! i never expected to see all that this early and it's all starting to feel real (and scary!). Also this past week i put on a outfit and actually looked like i had a little belly not like i was just bloated! It was SO amazing!
The doc said i just have to make sure and listen to my body as much as possible. I've noticed i get more nausea when i am standing, so i try to stand as little as possible. Also showers make em really lightheaded from all the steam my bathroom collects, so i take really short cold showers! It frustrating though because i miss hanging out with my friends, but i don't have energy to do anything, so i am hoping in February i can get caught up on my social calendar!
Saturday, January 14, 2012
How far along?: 9 weeks!
How big is baby?: an olive... and the skeleton forms this week along with fingers, toes, muscles, reproductive organs, pancreas and EARS!
Stretch marks?: one or two have popped up!
Maternity clothes?: i need to start considering this idea... quickly! officially have no old pants to wear, only stretchy ones and i have stretched out all my shirts! However, i am still loosing weight, it just seems to relocate to my abdomen!
Sleep?: i think this is a dream of the past!
Food cravings?: fwhen i am able to eat, everything in sight! otherwise... lots of sweets!
Movement?: not yet, unless my stomach constantly churning counts!
Gender?: still think it's a boy but 2 months before we find out
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: starting my new job and another doctor's appointment!
This week has been really hard for me. i have had less work and such because i am training for a new job while finishing up my old one. However i am finally starting to notice the effect pregnancy is having on me. I have been sick, not just nauseous and tired, but really sick to the point i am not functioning. Also (be prepared for TMI) we had a scare this week as i noticed a lot of bleeding. then as we were about to go to the ER we discovered that it is a side effect of my meds and it is from my constipation (aka it's wasn't a baby scare it was a different area that was bleeding!). This has led to me now eating as much, more weight loss and a lot of side effects. It sucks and i am overjoyed to be pregnant and the doctor is CONFIDENT all is well with the baby, i wish it was taking less of a toll on me! There's so much coming up i need my strength for! i will take ANY advice for how to feel better and get my strength back before next week!
How big is baby?: an olive... and the skeleton forms this week along with fingers, toes, muscles, reproductive organs, pancreas and EARS!
Stretch marks?: one or two have popped up!
Maternity clothes?: i need to start considering this idea... quickly! officially have no old pants to wear, only stretchy ones and i have stretched out all my shirts! However, i am still loosing weight, it just seems to relocate to my abdomen!
Sleep?: i think this is a dream of the past!
Food cravings?: fwhen i am able to eat, everything in sight! otherwise... lots of sweets!
Movement?: not yet, unless my stomach constantly churning counts!
Gender?: still think it's a boy but 2 months before we find out
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: starting my new job and another doctor's appointment!
This week has been really hard for me. i have had less work and such because i am training for a new job while finishing up my old one. However i am finally starting to notice the effect pregnancy is having on me. I have been sick, not just nauseous and tired, but really sick to the point i am not functioning. Also (be prepared for TMI) we had a scare this week as i noticed a lot of bleeding. then as we were about to go to the ER we discovered that it is a side effect of my meds and it is from my constipation (aka it's wasn't a baby scare it was a different area that was bleeding!). This has led to me now eating as much, more weight loss and a lot of side effects. It sucks and i am overjoyed to be pregnant and the doctor is CONFIDENT all is well with the baby, i wish it was taking less of a toll on me! There's so much coming up i need my strength for! i will take ANY advice for how to feel better and get my strength back before next week!
Saturday, January 7, 2012
first day of no nausea!
How far along?: 8 weeks!
How big is baby?: about the size of a lima bean/gummy bear!
Stretch marks?: only the ones i already had!
Maternity clothes?: nope but i have been wearing a lot of stretchy pants! my jeans only fit witha belly band and rubber band!
Sleep?: varies each night, i don't sleep for long increments anymore, just a few hours at a time
Food cravings?: french silk pie, hot fudge sundaes, chocolate! my sweet tooth is finally back!
Movement?: not yet
Gender?: still think it's a boy but 2 months before we find out
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: feeling better and less tired!
so a lot has been going on lately, we saw baby and got pictures of him/her! it was so amazing to see the heartbeat and it's finally all feeling very very real. We also got a house! so we will be moving in 2 months and have started packing, plus we will have a nursery to paint and make and it's exciting. Finally the doctor gave me anti-nausea meds and they are amazing! instead of nausea i get headaches but i will make that deal any day. it's been great to actually eat food and feel good! i've lost a fair amount of weight the past few weeks and although i am not excited about gaining them back i am excited to know that the baby and I are getting the nutrients we both need. i have been good about eating healthy and simply and having a lot of healthy snacks (fruits and veggies)! it's weird i could never make those changes to loose weight, but it was a no brainer to get me and baby healthy! i'm also blessed with am amazing husband who not only deals with all my attitudes and bitchyness, he still manages to make me breakfast in bed and pick up all my slack around the house so i can nap!
How big is baby?: about the size of a lima bean/gummy bear!
Stretch marks?: only the ones i already had!
Maternity clothes?: nope but i have been wearing a lot of stretchy pants! my jeans only fit witha belly band and rubber band!
Sleep?: varies each night, i don't sleep for long increments anymore, just a few hours at a time
Food cravings?: french silk pie, hot fudge sundaes, chocolate! my sweet tooth is finally back!
Movement?: not yet
Gender?: still think it's a boy but 2 months before we find out
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: feeling better and less tired!
so a lot has been going on lately, we saw baby and got pictures of him/her! it was so amazing to see the heartbeat and it's finally all feeling very very real. We also got a house! so we will be moving in 2 months and have started packing, plus we will have a nursery to paint and make and it's exciting. Finally the doctor gave me anti-nausea meds and they are amazing! instead of nausea i get headaches but i will make that deal any day. it's been great to actually eat food and feel good! i've lost a fair amount of weight the past few weeks and although i am not excited about gaining them back i am excited to know that the baby and I are getting the nutrients we both need. i have been good about eating healthy and simply and having a lot of healthy snacks (fruits and veggies)! it's weird i could never make those changes to loose weight, but it was a no brainer to get me and baby healthy! i'm also blessed with am amazing husband who not only deals with all my attitudes and bitchyness, he still manages to make me breakfast in bed and pick up all my slack around the house so i can nap!
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