Her story

So, here are the wonderful details of how the most BEAUTIFUL little girl i have ever seen (sorry rest of the world) came to take her first breath. I am not gonna lie if someone had told me this birth story while i was pregnant i would have cried. It was not fun or pretty, but it was worth it the moment i held my little girl.

Thursday the 9th i had a doctor's check-up and we were going to pick the date for my induction. originally the doctor had said it would be Friday, but she was not on call this weekend and knew it was not going to be an easy ride so we opted to come in again Monday and figure things out. Frustrated the weekend passed and nothing happened so we went in Monday expecting ti be induced that night. well the doctor was ready for me to be induced, but the next appointment was not until Tuesday night. So i went home, in tears, and moped for about 24 hours. We had at appointment for Tuesday at 10pm. All day Tuesday Kel and i went out and took some pictures to mark what i looked like the day before baby was born. I was HUGE, but the pictures turned out cute. 

So after dinner with my parents and a but more waiting we went in. Within an hour they got me hooked up and ready to go, with the Petosin (sp) started.It was slow going at first, but there was no real pain so they were able to up the amounts pretty quickly throughout the night. Problems started at about 1am when my blood pressure got REALLY high. I had to lay on my side wand wasn't allowed to move. Well as i turned to my side baby shifted and the heart monitor they had on her couldn't find her even after the nurse dug around. the told em to get some sleep and tried to find her heartbeat, eventually they did and i got about 1 hour of sleep... woohoo. at 4am my mom came and let kel get some sleep, since by then they had me flipping sides every hour. At 6am the lost baby's heartbeat for over 45 minutes 9scariest 45 minutes of my life) and it was determined that when the doctor made rounds at 7am they had to break my water and put in an internal monitor for contractions and her heartbeat. Since i was on the Petocin it's mandatory to record those, and with my blood pressure through the roof and baby nowhere to be found and my contractions coming in very strong and steady we were in a big pickle. Oh and the final catch, nobody could find y cervix because it was located in an odd place, so there was no way to determine if i was progressing. However i was handling everything very well, in good enough spirits and the pain was no issue at all.

So the doc came in at 7am, broke my water, determined i was no more than a three, still possibly a 2 (10 in the ultimate goal) had a LONG way to go but this should help. We had all the internal monitors put in and baby was good and contractions were much stronger than everyone thought since i was only a 2 or 3. after another hour i was still not progressed but the contractions were close to together. for a few more hours things were really picking up, but again i had not progressed any. with contractions 2 minutes apart and lasting almost a minute with no progress i was starting to panic.I was passing out between contractions and unable to handle them, plus i had to lay on my right side in order to keep my hip in socket. I was given small dosing of pain med, but they were reluctant to give me more because they were gradually dropping baby's heart rate. So i started asking about the options we had for pain management or other. the words c-section cam up and i knew that would be the safest route for all of us. Kel and i talked so briefly, but he could see that this was the safest route and recovery time would not be a factor if baby didn't come out safe. So at 11:00 we opted for a c-section and by 12:00 (noon) they were wheeling me in. Ounce they got started i realized the midsection of my epidural was not as strong as it should be and i c9ould feel them beginning to cut into my abdomen. I not so politely screamed at the doctors that i could feel it all. the only immediate way (as i was open, bleeding, prone to infection) to sedate me was morphine, so they pull out a HUGE vial of morphine and off i go. I remember nothing about the c-section (at one point i told kel Harry Potter was NOT the father of my child, i cussed out all the doctors while joking with them, and proceeded to exclaim i had fallen down the rabbits hole and into knock turn alley- that's right baby girl this is how mommy brought you into the world) and have no clue other than the picture of the first time i met my daughter. however she was safe and beautiful and PERFECT. they did have trouble getting her out, they had to widen my incision beyond normal lengths and forceps were used not once, but TWICE to get my c-section baby out. She just didn't want to come out. The doctor a day later told me had i tried to push it could have been really dangerous and bad seeing how reluctant she was to come out and that i would have had an emergency c-section anyway. The timing i had in making that decision saved a lot of trauma, pain, and possible problems and tearing for both me and her.

 perfect from the start!

 

first family photo- i have NO memory of this but the picture's so sweet to have

Cecelia Grace Robson came into my life, this world and our little family on the Assumption of Our Lady (coolest Holy Day) Aug. 15th at 12:36pm weighing 7lbs 12 ounces and measuring 20 1/2 inches.

Cuddles with mamma!

 SUCH a cutie!

 Going HOME!

Too cute not to Love!

First bath- not her favorite, but she likes them now!

One of my favorite outfits, her butt has a giant cupcake and ruffles on it! 

Daddy wearing her in the moby wrap- his new favorite way to do chores! 

Since then she has blossomed. The doctor has told us every time she has seen Cecelia that she is amazing, and one of the most perfect babies ever. She was holding her own head up day one (not kidding either) and she eats amazing. i was worried about breastfeeding but this kid has led the way and does great. I was released from the hospital a day and a half earlier than most c-sections. She has officially gained back all the weight she had lost in the hospital. Also i have started pumping (i feed her 8-12 times a day and pump 2 times a day) about 10-15 ounces a day (which seems normal to me, but i have been told from others that 10-15 ounces for the first WEEK of baby's life in UNHEARD OF- but we need the supply for when i go back to work). She i wonderful and one of the most beautiful babies i have ever seen- yes i am biased! She only cries when she is hungry and is So well behaved. sleep good at night and on a schedule during the day already! Motherhood is SO MUCH EASIER than being pregnant and we are so blessed with our little family.

weird to think...

that i can honestly say i am going to have a baby this week! Yup that's right if i haven't had her by Friday i will be induced this week.

It was a long conversation i had with my hubby, but after finding out how big baby is and the last visit where the doc said i am very close to my cervix being "ready" we decided to go ahead and let them induce me at 39 weeks. There's a lot of controversy about inducing before 40 weeks or even 41 weeks, but each case is individual. Literally right now baby is so big that if we wait until 40 or 41 weeks there's a chance i wont be induced as much as a planned c-section. I definitely don't want a planned c-section s(if it happens no problem that's what is best for baby, but i want to TRY natural first before we decide on surgery). So instead we are opting that teh first possible moment it is legal to induce (at 39 weeks) i will be heading in to get this going! woo hoo! of course baby girls ALWAYS has the option of just coming early by herself and i am MORE than encouraging of that behavior.

The biggest thing lately is that everyone i talk to tell me if we need anything just ask! I always feel weird when people off this because i am not sure who i can ask and what i can ask without overstepping my boundaries. Kel and I already do need help in numerous ways and i know for a fact we will be needing help after baby in even more ways. I hate asking for help, so maybe this way if people want to help they can look here ans see what we need and if it's plausible to help. the top ones are:

• food! we are stocking up on freezer meals! honestly cooking is a struggle for both of us, shopping is even worse and we have been trying to freeze everything so that after baby we don't have to dwell on what we will eat. So far we have enough food for 1-2 weeks if we are careful! this is nothing and as i will be home and not at work eating this kinda worries me! we aren't very picky and will not turn down food if someone ever offer to bring us a meal (either now for the freezer or after baby is here for dinner!)
• diapers! we are doing cloth diapers and we only have 6 with minimal of the needed "accessories." On average you need 18-20 for one kid if you plan on doing laundry every day. The ones we registered for are $20 a diaper and it's all adding up. we have been setting aside money to get them, then today kel's car blew a flat tire and we spent our diaper money on his tire! So we are officially having issue figuring out what to do for diapers. The nice things is once we have them we don't need anymore, EVER and my sister is letting us use all her newborn diapers for right after baby. Big issue though is if baby is as big as they say, she will only fit in newborn diapers for 2 weeks and then we are back to square one with the no diapers thing! It's so easy to order online (if you wanna help out form a distance) and then Kel and I (or a willing helper) can just go and pick them up from the store! Our registry is still up at the website all needed information is here: 
• Event name: Cecelia Grace Robson
•  walks- haha RIGHT NOW i need someone to go on walks with me until she gets here. I am trying to take a long walk (by long i mean VERY VERY slow as i waddle pretty badly, but not very far in distance, just down the trail 1/4 of a mile-ish) everyday but Kel works ALL week overnights and i am too paranoid to walk by myself. I feel bad asking people but if someone where to arrange a date and time i know it'd be easier for me to get moving! And honestly a couple weeks after baby when i am ready to get moving and have nowhere to go i am sure i will need more walking buddies.
• lots of prayers! 

Pretty much right now it's all jitters! Kel has to work all week and then we can only afford for him to take a minimal amount of time off after baby comes. I am super nervous about when baby is home and it's just me alone, but at the same time i am SO miserable right now i feel like i am going to bust if i have to wait any longer! i feel a little worse every day and i can't imagine what i will feel like by the end of the week!