How far along?: 15 weeks!
How big is baby?: a softball, except not as round and much longer
Stretch marks?: Yes! and they itch!
Maternity clothes?: Definitely!
Sleep?: yes all night every night. and waking up not as tired! it's a great feeling
Food cravings?: chocolate muffins! i was in tears and poor kel couldn't find one for me!
Movement?: not yet, but soon!
Gender?: we find out in 1 month!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: i still cling to the hope that i will someday soon feel better, although common sense says i am gonna be sick throughout the whole thing!
Sunday, February 26, 2012
Friday, February 17, 2012
+2
How far along?: 14 weeks!
How big is baby?: still about the size of my fist, just a little longer than last week.
Stretch marks?: Yes! and they itch!
Maternity clothes?: 100%- i put on a t-shirt that has always been big on me and it was not long enough to cover my stomach completely.
Sleep?: slept last night all the way though, hoping this is a trend
Food cravings?: chocolate! i can't get enough!
Movement?: it's moving but i can't feel it
Gender?: the doc made a joke about how it seems like a boy this week! as much fun as it is to guess, i am anxious to find out!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: less stress. we met with the doctor and all is going well. I gained two pounds in two weeks, so the doctor is hopeful i am on the up rise. It's wierd to finally be gaining weight. I am hoping i don't gain too much too quick, i would like it to be nice and even at the end of it all. but baby is healthy and now is growing and i am finally getting enough nutrients in my system to support growth. I can usually eat a couple small meals a day without getting too sick! I had a sinus infection all week so i couldn't smell anything. It sucked being sick but i enjoyed the nasal relief while i had it.
How big is baby?: still about the size of my fist, just a little longer than last week.
Stretch marks?: Yes! and they itch!
Maternity clothes?: 100%- i put on a t-shirt that has always been big on me and it was not long enough to cover my stomach completely.
Sleep?: slept last night all the way though, hoping this is a trend
Food cravings?: chocolate! i can't get enough!
Movement?: it's moving but i can't feel it
Gender?: the doc made a joke about how it seems like a boy this week! as much fun as it is to guess, i am anxious to find out!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?: less stress. we met with the doctor and all is going well. I gained two pounds in two weeks, so the doctor is hopeful i am on the up rise. It's wierd to finally be gaining weight. I am hoping i don't gain too much too quick, i would like it to be nice and even at the end of it all. but baby is healthy and now is growing and i am finally getting enough nutrients in my system to support growth. I can usually eat a couple small meals a day without getting too sick! I had a sinus infection all week so i couldn't smell anything. It sucked being sick but i enjoyed the nasal relief while i had it.
Saturday, February 11, 2012
Welcome to teh 2nd Trimester!
How far along?: 13 weeks! Officially int eh 2nd Trimester!
How big is baby?: MY fist (there was a lot of debate, the books aid a fist, but human hands come in so many sizes that i made the decision that it is MY fist!)
Stretch marks?: no new ones
Maternity clothes?: yup
Sleep?: starting to sleep all teh way through the night, a whole 8 hours in a row! yay
Food cravings?: nope, although i eat A LOT of CRISPIX. one day that's all i ate and i finished the whole box in a day
Movement?: we can now feel and find the heartbeat when we search, and it moves around so i know baby is moving around
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?:getting better, eating more and getting active again. I haven't felt like me lately but i am hoping i start to again soon. i am still a little careful and worried from Monday, but we see the doctor this week (again, they must be making a fortune off of us) so hopefully she can answer all my questions.
How big is baby?: MY fist (there was a lot of debate, the books aid a fist, but human hands come in so many sizes that i made the decision that it is MY fist!)
Stretch marks?: no new ones
Maternity clothes?: yup
Sleep?: starting to sleep all teh way through the night, a whole 8 hours in a row! yay
Food cravings?: nope, although i eat A LOT of CRISPIX. one day that's all i ate and i finished the whole box in a day
Movement?: we can now feel and find the heartbeat when we search, and it moves around so i know baby is moving around
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?:getting better, eating more and getting active again. I haven't felt like me lately but i am hoping i start to again soon. i am still a little careful and worried from Monday, but we see the doctor this week (again, they must be making a fortune off of us) so hopefully she can answer all my questions.
Wednesday, February 8, 2012
Scariest Day of my LIFE!
(warning: i am not going to skip any details, so it may be TMI for some people)
So ALL day monday i had been having light cramps in my abdomen. i didn't think a thing of it because i have them ALL the time, and i was hoping that meant baby was growing that things were progressing. So then later afternoon i head to work and while i am sitting in the office listening to my boss explain something i get hit with SEARING PAIN in my abdomen. Then i felt like i had wet my pant a little bit. So for 20 minutes i sat there (i am SURE i was making faces at my boss, but really i was trying to hide the fact that i wanted to double over in pain) and tried so hard to listen to what she was saying. finally she finished explaining that particular things and i quickly excuse myself and rush to the bathroom. i knew what i would see, but i was praying it wasn't what i thought. then there it was, one little drop of blood. So i quickly pee and wipe and there are is blood everywhere now. i cleaned myself up and head back to the office. I calmly start saying i have to leave because i am headed for the ER, but my boss shouldn't worry and i will update her this evening or tomorrow. We canceled my training for the night, she asked if i was OK to drive, and i left.
I got in the car and LOST it! i called Kel 4 times and called my friend Meghan 2 times until someone picked up. I was screaming on the phone that i was loosing the baby and headed to the ER and i just want Kel, nobody else but Kel. I finally get a hold of Kel, get to the ER and go up to the lady to check in. The lady i am checking in with is pregnant. i explain that i am 12 weeks and have had severe abdominal pain and bleeding, lots of bleeding and her face must have looked like mine. i had stopped crying by now but she was in shear terror. Every fear she had ever had was on her face. She tells me to sit down and i calmly sit and watch Ellen on tv. Kel shows up and gives me a look that makes me cry, and Meghan shows up (poor girls with super sick) and starts rubbing my back. I get called in and then sent back to a room. I just sat there, crying and crying and crying. Finally a TECH came in to take me (alone, Kel wasn't allowed to come and i hated it) to an ultra sound. i saw the baby on the screen, but no movement. so as i am panicking the tech says i have to calm down because i am tensing my stomach and distorting the picture. she tries to move the screen so i can't see but i still saw as she measured babies heart beat. There it was, the little flutter that i needed to see to know that i am going to be ok!
I was sent back to the room for awhile and then the lab lady (also pregnant) came in to take blood. I have always been IMPOSSIBLE to get blood from and it took 2 different sticks, lots of tourniquet and little hand slaps to stimulate blood and the slowest flowing blood EVER for me to just get the vials filled. Finally after having blood taken out of my knuckle (SO painful) all is well and i lay back to relax.
An hour later (slowest hour of my life!) the doctor says that baby is fine, has a very strong heart beat, the are going to examine me just in case and that i can go home tonight. HUGE SIGH! I get examined and am sent home. Nobody ever really mentioned what was wrong, but i heard the doctor mention i might have torn my cervix. awesome, that doesn't sound painful. Anyway i was sent home and told to take it VERY easy for the next few days until i follow up with MY doctor. so i go home and i did not sleep one wink that night. I took the next day off work and slept all day. when i finally got up at about 4pm i was feeling better, but still had some cramping.
I called the doctor and she ironically is on vacation this week, awesome. so i talked to her nurse practitioner. Pretty much what we THINK happened is a. i ripped my cervix... fun or b. all my weight loss has led to a degrading of my body (but baby is getting all the nutrient therefor doing great) meaning that my body is slowly failing. either way it's not good. I am making sure to take care, especially until i see the doctor, and am being VERY careful until i know more information. Kel and i are still a little worried, but we have a very good fighter on our hands (despite it's laziness that gives mamma heart attacks). If at such a young fetal age our baby is fighting so much, i am scared of the thought of teenager kiddo!
So this was in fact the scariest day of my life. All the feelings that i had lost baby were unbearable. God has blessed us and truly has big plans for this baby. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a baby at any stage... you are all in my prayers! Please say a few prayers for us and for baby. I am hoping that this pregnancy gets a little bit easier, at the same time i will do whatever is asked of me in order for baby to be healthy!
So ALL day monday i had been having light cramps in my abdomen. i didn't think a thing of it because i have them ALL the time, and i was hoping that meant baby was growing that things were progressing. So then later afternoon i head to work and while i am sitting in the office listening to my boss explain something i get hit with SEARING PAIN in my abdomen. Then i felt like i had wet my pant a little bit. So for 20 minutes i sat there (i am SURE i was making faces at my boss, but really i was trying to hide the fact that i wanted to double over in pain) and tried so hard to listen to what she was saying. finally she finished explaining that particular things and i quickly excuse myself and rush to the bathroom. i knew what i would see, but i was praying it wasn't what i thought. then there it was, one little drop of blood. So i quickly pee and wipe and there are is blood everywhere now. i cleaned myself up and head back to the office. I calmly start saying i have to leave because i am headed for the ER, but my boss shouldn't worry and i will update her this evening or tomorrow. We canceled my training for the night, she asked if i was OK to drive, and i left.
I got in the car and LOST it! i called Kel 4 times and called my friend Meghan 2 times until someone picked up. I was screaming on the phone that i was loosing the baby and headed to the ER and i just want Kel, nobody else but Kel. I finally get a hold of Kel, get to the ER and go up to the lady to check in. The lady i am checking in with is pregnant. i explain that i am 12 weeks and have had severe abdominal pain and bleeding, lots of bleeding and her face must have looked like mine. i had stopped crying by now but she was in shear terror. Every fear she had ever had was on her face. She tells me to sit down and i calmly sit and watch Ellen on tv. Kel shows up and gives me a look that makes me cry, and Meghan shows up (poor girls with super sick) and starts rubbing my back. I get called in and then sent back to a room. I just sat there, crying and crying and crying. Finally a TECH came in to take me (alone, Kel wasn't allowed to come and i hated it) to an ultra sound. i saw the baby on the screen, but no movement. so as i am panicking the tech says i have to calm down because i am tensing my stomach and distorting the picture. she tries to move the screen so i can't see but i still saw as she measured babies heart beat. There it was, the little flutter that i needed to see to know that i am going to be ok!
I was sent back to the room for awhile and then the lab lady (also pregnant) came in to take blood. I have always been IMPOSSIBLE to get blood from and it took 2 different sticks, lots of tourniquet and little hand slaps to stimulate blood and the slowest flowing blood EVER for me to just get the vials filled. Finally after having blood taken out of my knuckle (SO painful) all is well and i lay back to relax.
An hour later (slowest hour of my life!) the doctor says that baby is fine, has a very strong heart beat, the are going to examine me just in case and that i can go home tonight. HUGE SIGH! I get examined and am sent home. Nobody ever really mentioned what was wrong, but i heard the doctor mention i might have torn my cervix. awesome, that doesn't sound painful. Anyway i was sent home and told to take it VERY easy for the next few days until i follow up with MY doctor. so i go home and i did not sleep one wink that night. I took the next day off work and slept all day. when i finally got up at about 4pm i was feeling better, but still had some cramping.
I called the doctor and she ironically is on vacation this week, awesome. so i talked to her nurse practitioner. Pretty much what we THINK happened is a. i ripped my cervix... fun or b. all my weight loss has led to a degrading of my body (but baby is getting all the nutrient therefor doing great) meaning that my body is slowly failing. either way it's not good. I am making sure to take care, especially until i see the doctor, and am being VERY careful until i know more information. Kel and i are still a little worried, but we have a very good fighter on our hands (despite it's laziness that gives mamma heart attacks). If at such a young fetal age our baby is fighting so much, i am scared of the thought of teenager kiddo!
So this was in fact the scariest day of my life. All the feelings that i had lost baby were unbearable. God has blessed us and truly has big plans for this baby. My heart goes out to anyone who has lost a baby at any stage... you are all in my prayers! Please say a few prayers for us and for baby. I am hoping that this pregnancy gets a little bit easier, at the same time i will do whatever is asked of me in order for baby to be healthy!
Saturday, February 4, 2012
Best Week So Far
How far along?: 12 weeks!
How big is baby?: a large plum... but i don't eat plums so it's easier to say an average sized orange
Stretch marks?: there actually seem to be less this week. but i have one particular one that itches like crazy
Maternity clothes?: yup, but they are still a little bit big on me in the tummy area.
Sleep?: yeah, but i always wake up with aches and pains in various spots!
Food cravings?: nothing, i am just so glad when i get a chance to eat food!
Movement?: not that i can feel all the time, but it's getting really easy for me to find and feel the heartbeat whenever i want. And the heartbeat location changes all the time, so i know baby is moving in there. although for the ultrasound this week Baby was still a lazy Baby, maybe it's just that time of morning. We did get to see Baby move once at the end when i giggled a little bit. Baby seemed to be stretching.
Thanks Megan for the frame! WE LOVE IT! this is baby at 10 weeks... the 12 week ultrasounds didn't turn out so well, but same just more defined limbs and fingers, etc!
Gender?: Online quizzes say it's a boy, midwives tales say it's a girl, pretty much it is whatever people want it to be right now!
Belly button?: honestly alert: i am weirded out by belly buttons and have always appreciated my MAJOR innie. but now that i am faced with the day it pops out like a snooze button; i am honestly concerned adn don't want a weirdo prego belly button.
What are you looking forward to this week?: FOOD! i am FINALLY feeling 100% better. I am off my progesterone (which is you've been on it you will do a virtual kart-wheel with me) and my attitude, crumminess, constant nausea, fatigue (somewhat, I'm still very very tired throughout the day, but not nearly as bad as it was), and bloating are all gone! i'm so glad to feel like me + 1! i can finally get excited!
So i went to the doctor this week. We found out this is in fact my last week in the first trimester! This is just music to my ears! I also heard something i NEVER thought i would hear. The doctor said she is worried about my weight loss (i've lost 25 pounds SINCE i got pregnant-aka since my wedding). For a girl MY size to loose that much weight is bothersome. Most women who loose weight during pregnancy gain a lot of water weight first and then start "loosing" all the bloating and water weight they have gained. That is not at all my case. I have literally eaten so little and thrown up so much that in the past 3 months that i am at my lowest wight since junior year of college. And this all happened during the holidays! Anyway, back to my doctor: she said that the baby is big for it's "age" and very strong. She is not at all worried that the baby is not getting what it needs. between my vitamins, hormones, and little bits of food here and there the baby is sucking nutrients out of my body. So her concern is actually for me, the mama. She is worried that because baby is getting so many nutrients that i am not getting the nutrients i need. this in turn is making me sicker because i can't support myself and it can cause problems AFTER the baby with recovery, getting sick easily, breastfeeding, etc. My doctor is hoping that i gain AT LEAST 15 pounds (from this point, so still -10 from where i started!) of baby weight. If i don't start gaining soon she said she is gonna have to try a few things. But i am already feeling better and i have not puked or wanted to puke in 3 days, so i have hope that we wont have to "try" anything. I am excited about my weight loss now that i know baby is healthy, but i have to work 2X harder to make sure i eat as much nutritious food as possible (i am eating SO MUCH vitamin C) to make sure I get some yummy vitamins too! It's weird to think i have lost weight because my stomach is getting bigger each week and i don't look like I've lost it except in my face and arms.
Oh and my hubby wants me to add that the baby bump is obvious (to those who know me) now and he is super excited about it. he WONT stop touching my stomach whenever it's in reach. It's slightly annoying, but i'd rather him than random people be all over my stomach since it's his kid too! Oh and he is kinda bummed he doesn't get to be a bigger part of it all (and i read that is true for most hubbies) but i told him i can always give him food poisoning and he can pretend he's a part of it and he declined, so i think he's just being whinny!
bad picture of me.... good one of my tummy!
How big is baby?: a large plum... but i don't eat plums so it's easier to say an average sized orange
Stretch marks?: there actually seem to be less this week. but i have one particular one that itches like crazy
Maternity clothes?: yup, but they are still a little bit big on me in the tummy area.
Sleep?: yeah, but i always wake up with aches and pains in various spots!
Food cravings?: nothing, i am just so glad when i get a chance to eat food!
Movement?: not that i can feel all the time, but it's getting really easy for me to find and feel the heartbeat whenever i want. And the heartbeat location changes all the time, so i know baby is moving in there. although for the ultrasound this week Baby was still a lazy Baby, maybe it's just that time of morning. We did get to see Baby move once at the end when i giggled a little bit. Baby seemed to be stretching.
Thanks Megan for the frame! WE LOVE IT! this is baby at 10 weeks... the 12 week ultrasounds didn't turn out so well, but same just more defined limbs and fingers, etc!
Gender?: Online quizzes say it's a boy, midwives tales say it's a girl, pretty much it is whatever people want it to be right now!
Belly button?: honestly alert: i am weirded out by belly buttons and have always appreciated my MAJOR innie. but now that i am faced with the day it pops out like a snooze button; i am honestly concerned adn don't want a weirdo prego belly button.
What are you looking forward to this week?: FOOD! i am FINALLY feeling 100% better. I am off my progesterone (which is you've been on it you will do a virtual kart-wheel with me) and my attitude, crumminess, constant nausea, fatigue (somewhat, I'm still very very tired throughout the day, but not nearly as bad as it was), and bloating are all gone! i'm so glad to feel like me + 1! i can finally get excited!
So i went to the doctor this week. We found out this is in fact my last week in the first trimester! This is just music to my ears! I also heard something i NEVER thought i would hear. The doctor said she is worried about my weight loss (i've lost 25 pounds SINCE i got pregnant-aka since my wedding). For a girl MY size to loose that much weight is bothersome. Most women who loose weight during pregnancy gain a lot of water weight first and then start "loosing" all the bloating and water weight they have gained. That is not at all my case. I have literally eaten so little and thrown up so much that in the past 3 months that i am at my lowest wight since junior year of college. And this all happened during the holidays! Anyway, back to my doctor: she said that the baby is big for it's "age" and very strong. She is not at all worried that the baby is not getting what it needs. between my vitamins, hormones, and little bits of food here and there the baby is sucking nutrients out of my body. So her concern is actually for me, the mama. She is worried that because baby is getting so many nutrients that i am not getting the nutrients i need. this in turn is making me sicker because i can't support myself and it can cause problems AFTER the baby with recovery, getting sick easily, breastfeeding, etc. My doctor is hoping that i gain AT LEAST 15 pounds (from this point, so still -10 from where i started!) of baby weight. If i don't start gaining soon she said she is gonna have to try a few things. But i am already feeling better and i have not puked or wanted to puke in 3 days, so i have hope that we wont have to "try" anything. I am excited about my weight loss now that i know baby is healthy, but i have to work 2X harder to make sure i eat as much nutritious food as possible (i am eating SO MUCH vitamin C) to make sure I get some yummy vitamins too! It's weird to think i have lost weight because my stomach is getting bigger each week and i don't look like I've lost it except in my face and arms.
Oh and my hubby wants me to add that the baby bump is obvious (to those who know me) now and he is super excited about it. he WONT stop touching my stomach whenever it's in reach. It's slightly annoying, but i'd rather him than random people be all over my stomach since it's his kid too! Oh and he is kinda bummed he doesn't get to be a bigger part of it all (and i read that is true for most hubbies) but i told him i can always give him food poisoning and he can pretend he's a part of it and he declined, so i think he's just being whinny!
Sunday, January 29, 2012
How far along?: 11 weeks!
How big is baby?: A large lime
Stretch marks?: no new ones
Maternity clothes?: officially. i went shopping today and got two pairs of jeans, a pair of khakis and a shirt!
Sleep?: never all the way through the night!
Food cravings?: nothing really, i jsut eat it is it DOESN"T make me gag
Movement?: Kel pushed really hard on my lower abs and was able to feel the super fast itty bitty heartbeat! it was really cool. i just felt my own
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?:starting my new job. hopefully i will start to feel better soon.
How big is baby?: A large lime
Stretch marks?: no new ones
Maternity clothes?: officially. i went shopping today and got two pairs of jeans, a pair of khakis and a shirt!
Sleep?: never all the way through the night!
Food cravings?: nothing really, i jsut eat it is it DOESN"T make me gag
Movement?: Kel pushed really hard on my lower abs and was able to feel the super fast itty bitty heartbeat! it was really cool. i just felt my own
Gender?: no clue!
Belly button?: normal! thank goodness~!
What are you looking forward to this week?:starting my new job. hopefully i will start to feel better soon.
Monday, January 23, 2012
3 sides to this story...
Today there are thousand upon thousand of people in Washington DC marching, some silent, some loud, some young, many old, protesting the Supreme Court Decision of Roe v. Wade. Today has been emotional for me and it's not just for one reason. I have three sides to my ProLife reason. All of them have happened in the past year. I have always been ProLife, i've even marched 3 different years in DC, but i never really understood the gravity of the situation until this year.
Side 1: The first event to shock the true meaning of ProLife into me was the adoption of my niece. I have talked about her often in my other blog. However today i thought about her more and more by the hour. She is only a part of my family because some woman i will never meet, some woman in a bad situation that i will never know, decided that Her life was to give her unborn child a life. Not only did she give birth and then struggle for the rest of her life to make ends meet and raise that little baby girl, hoping that little baby girl had a good life, but she gave that Baby girl more than just her first breath, she gave her a family that will make sure every single possible avenue of love, life and respect will be brought into that baby girl's life. God gave up his only son for the world to be saved. My nieces birthmom gave up her baby girl for that baby to be saved. Both were more difficult than i could ever imagine. Jesus saved the world because he was given up!
Side 2: My sister-in-law got pregnant last year. No father, no job, nowhere to go. She was easily in a situation many women claim they can't handle. Many women turn to a doctor and say "make this disappear so i don't ruin my life!" My sister-in-law toughed through it to save a BABY's life. It's very weird in one month seeing the joy an unplanned baby brought to my family because of a woman's selfless decision and then seeing the trials and tribulations that come from an unplanned baby. It's such a difference on each end, but both result in LIFE not death. Keeping a baby after a rocky situation is just as hard of a choice as giving the baby up. Many people would argue with that, but until they have seen both it is impossible to gauge. I believe after seeing both sides that there is a choice for every woman faced with pregnancy, wanted or unwanted, to make instead of life or death: Give up the baby and the baby a change with a family you hand choose, see the baby as you wish and know for your life that the baby is safe, warm, loved and doubly blessed by you, or to give up your life to keep the baby as your own no matter what happens after that. Both require a sacrifice, and neither is easy. However both are easier on a woman than the regrets to come after murdering a helpless child before they even take their first breath.
3. my third point of view is my own. I am pregnant. I understand that i am "fortunate" and many people would argue that my situation is different from other because i am married (i put that in parenthesis because i CHOSE to wait until i was married to have a baby). However, i have loved this baby with everything i have since the moment my fourth (yeah i was untrusting of the first three) pregnancy test said PREGNANT! Just because i am married doesn't mean i am ready, it doesn't mean i'm not scared, it doesn't mean i can afford this. My husband and i were barely making it work BEFORE this and already the extra expenses are a lot to handle. but my hardships and fear are no reason to give up. This already has not been an easy pregnancy on me. I have changed physically and mentally and been sicker than anyone could have ever prepared me for. me throwing up every day is no excuse to kill my child.
I know that looking at the situations and my current situation is not the same as what many women's situation has been. That doesn't mean i am clueless. However, i have seen women loose a child, i have seen women miscarry, i have seen a teenage girl live with the regret of having an abortion and i have seen my own sister go through YEARS of trying just to find out that infertility means she will never biologically have children. Of all those situations the one that was hurt the most if the girl who chose HER life over her babies! If a person is willing to have an abortion i challenge them to go the whole 40 weeks, give birth to the baby, and then have to doctor kill it. It sound vulgar and asinine that i even suggest it, but ask yourself how much of a different there really is. Both require a great deal of physically pain and both endure more mental pain than almost any woman can bear. No baby is an "accident." Every baby was intended by God to live on this earth, not matter how long or brief a life. Unborn children can't speak up for themselves, but as a woman carrying an unborn child i have to say something. My baby deserves life, why shouldn't all of them?
Side 1: The first event to shock the true meaning of ProLife into me was the adoption of my niece. I have talked about her often in my other blog. However today i thought about her more and more by the hour. She is only a part of my family because some woman i will never meet, some woman in a bad situation that i will never know, decided that Her life was to give her unborn child a life. Not only did she give birth and then struggle for the rest of her life to make ends meet and raise that little baby girl, hoping that little baby girl had a good life, but she gave that Baby girl more than just her first breath, she gave her a family that will make sure every single possible avenue of love, life and respect will be brought into that baby girl's life. God gave up his only son for the world to be saved. My nieces birthmom gave up her baby girl for that baby to be saved. Both were more difficult than i could ever imagine. Jesus saved the world because he was given up!
Side 2: My sister-in-law got pregnant last year. No father, no job, nowhere to go. She was easily in a situation many women claim they can't handle. Many women turn to a doctor and say "make this disappear so i don't ruin my life!" My sister-in-law toughed through it to save a BABY's life. It's very weird in one month seeing the joy an unplanned baby brought to my family because of a woman's selfless decision and then seeing the trials and tribulations that come from an unplanned baby. It's such a difference on each end, but both result in LIFE not death. Keeping a baby after a rocky situation is just as hard of a choice as giving the baby up. Many people would argue with that, but until they have seen both it is impossible to gauge. I believe after seeing both sides that there is a choice for every woman faced with pregnancy, wanted or unwanted, to make instead of life or death: Give up the baby and the baby a change with a family you hand choose, see the baby as you wish and know for your life that the baby is safe, warm, loved and doubly blessed by you, or to give up your life to keep the baby as your own no matter what happens after that. Both require a sacrifice, and neither is easy. However both are easier on a woman than the regrets to come after murdering a helpless child before they even take their first breath.
3. my third point of view is my own. I am pregnant. I understand that i am "fortunate" and many people would argue that my situation is different from other because i am married (i put that in parenthesis because i CHOSE to wait until i was married to have a baby). However, i have loved this baby with everything i have since the moment my fourth (yeah i was untrusting of the first three) pregnancy test said PREGNANT! Just because i am married doesn't mean i am ready, it doesn't mean i'm not scared, it doesn't mean i can afford this. My husband and i were barely making it work BEFORE this and already the extra expenses are a lot to handle. but my hardships and fear are no reason to give up. This already has not been an easy pregnancy on me. I have changed physically and mentally and been sicker than anyone could have ever prepared me for. me throwing up every day is no excuse to kill my child.
I know that looking at the situations and my current situation is not the same as what many women's situation has been. That doesn't mean i am clueless. However, i have seen women loose a child, i have seen women miscarry, i have seen a teenage girl live with the regret of having an abortion and i have seen my own sister go through YEARS of trying just to find out that infertility means she will never biologically have children. Of all those situations the one that was hurt the most if the girl who chose HER life over her babies! If a person is willing to have an abortion i challenge them to go the whole 40 weeks, give birth to the baby, and then have to doctor kill it. It sound vulgar and asinine that i even suggest it, but ask yourself how much of a different there really is. Both require a great deal of physically pain and both endure more mental pain than almost any woman can bear. No baby is an "accident." Every baby was intended by God to live on this earth, not matter how long or brief a life. Unborn children can't speak up for themselves, but as a woman carrying an unborn child i have to say something. My baby deserves life, why shouldn't all of them?
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